I had 2 computer expert-ish housemates and one computer expert-ish teammate all staring at my laptop-in-a-coma yesterday afternoon, all looking just as blank as its screen.
One of the aforementioned housemates then lent me a spare laptop of his which is very good of him, but it can't go online as it pre-dates when laptops were made with any means of connecting a phone line or USB cable. And I have to get hold of a Windows 98 CD so I can change the keyboard to English and touchtype!
So I'm still looking for an angel with a screwdriver... today I'll head to a Computer Fixing Place to get an estimate of whether it's possible to fix or worth fixing - accompanied by aforementioned computerish team mate so I don't get ripped off through looking too obviously non computer expert-ish.
In the meantime...
And as I was having a drink with the 2 housemates aforementioned yesterday evening, one announced the problem (with the world) is that we're all looking for happiness, but we're looking in the wrong places: money, success, career, politics... "Where is happiness found?" he asked, "Where is happiness found?" turning to me. I had a feeling that it was a semi-rhetorical question and he was about to tell us, partly because he seemed to be half-way through an ongoing dispute with his girlfriend about feminism, to which the rest of us weren't really partie, but he was demanding an answer from me, so I said, "Joy is found in God." It wasn't the answer he wanted, and it shocked him enough to deflect him for 5 seconds.
Love, he said. Love between a man and a woman. Whereupon my mind filled with images of a bloke swinging round pillars on the roof of the Moulin Rouge singing heartily "All you need is love!" morphing into the vicar from The Princess Bride saying, "Luve, twue luuve...". I didn't know we still had any believers in Bohemianism. What struck me in the ensuing rambling discussion was that the accompanying idea of love was supremely self-seeking rather than self-giving.
I've got to think about how self-seeking Bohemian love is different from self-giving Christian hedonist love [answers on a postcard - or comments will do], but quite apart from that, I'm far from immune from distorting love too. I was challenged recently reading Paul writing to the Philippian believers that God is his witness how he longs for them with the love of Christ. I can often try to break down love into 'what I should do': the practice of a collection of attitudes, actions and emotions which are loving. This falls short of loving with the affection of Christ Jesus. I pray that I would love with the love of Christ, not merely practise that which may be part of it. And the love of Christ is such that I need to pray for the power of the Spirit just to begin to get a grasp on how huge it is - quite apart from praying about practising it!
My Joy in the Desert
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